Honestly I’ve started and stopped writing this email at least three times. Not only have I not written anything to you in several months (aside from my newsletter last week), but now that I am, it’s incredibly hard to get my thoughts focused.
It’s that “I don’t know where to begin” paralysis.
So how about this: right now, my daughter Lexi is sitting on the bed with me eating chocolate covered strawberries. I’m laying down with bloody drains coming out of my side, trying to take as little pain medication as possible. I just had a mastectomy.
Every day this week, my friends have been bringing my family meals. It’s only the fifth day after surgery and already my refrigerator is stuffed full. My bestie Jen sent the chocolate strawberries. I have bouquets of flowers surrounding my bed and heaps of cards on my table.
And part of me wants to text everyone and tell them to stop sending things and bringing food, because I’m fine goddamit, and then another part of me reminds me that I still need help just putting my clothes on, or brushing my hair.
I know this might be a surprise. People who live a “straight and narrow holy life” aren’t supposed to get things like cancer, are they?
I remember feeling the same way when Wayne Dyer, my radio cohost for many years, got leukemia. And when Debbie Ford, another friend, got cancer. And when Jerry Hicks got cancer.
It doesn’t make sense. Yet of course it does make sense, if we only had the wherewithal to know what was really going on Upstairs.
Nevertheless, I’m going to save the “why I manifested cancer” epistle for another post, because instead I need to explore something more immediate that’s popped up that I’m struggling to understand in terms of Flow, which is how to receive.
Yep, that old bad boy, coming around for yet another round.
What an irony, I think, that I’ve practiced the art of Flowdreaming and manifesting to where I create some truly dazzling things, but even so, here I am rubbing up again against that same ceiling.
You know how I found it this time?
I found it in my urge to tell my friends to stop bringing my family meals.
In the feeling of guilt that comes up when I think to myself that my friends sure treat me better than I treat them.
When I think to myself that I have so many people who care about me, and how little I hardly ever go out of my way for them in return.
It makes me think about everyone I know who’s had surgery too, and I didn’t sign up to bring their family dinners or send them flowers. All I can focus on is how selfish I’ve been in my friendships.
And then, too, I think about all the lovely emails and thank you gifts I receive from strangers who tell me I helped them think differently, see their lives differently, take their power back, wake up to Flow, and totally change their lives.
I think how in the past, I’ve taken pleasure in their gratitude for about five minutes, then let it drop from my thinking. After all, it’s hard to really receive that. What if I become an egomaniac? “Better to not receive it than risk becoming a complete ass.”
(By the way, I’m changing this! Every email, letter, or gift is now my opportunity to practice receiving from you. So thank you!)
I know this sounds like crazy talk. But all of our ceilings sound like crazy talk to someone who doesn’t share them.
Instead of ruminating on how much I actually do for people, both strangers and friends, this emotional ceiling of mine makes me focus on how much I don’t do, how not good enough I am, even when I do as much as I humanly can.
Do you see what we’re getting at here?
A giant “I’m not good enough” sub-routine that’s been playing in my system for god knows how long has reared up…again.
I can’t savor these chocolate strawberries as I eat them, because I feel guilty and bad that my friend brought them.
I manifested a beautiful circle of people around me, but I can’t let them give to me.
I wonder where else this same subroutine is playing out in my life, in Flow, and in what I’m trying to manifest and create?
Where else do I create, but feel unworthy to receive the full extent of what I’ve made?
This is right at the heart of the dilemma so many of us are in.
We work so hard to create, flow, receive, manifest abundance…and then when it arrives, the other hidden script pops up and says, “Nope. You don’t deserve this. Don’t you feel like you’re inconveniencing these people….
“Don’t you feel like you’re taking more than you give?
“Don’t you feel like you charged too much?
“Don’t you feel like they could do better elsewhere than with you?
“Don’t you feel like you shouldn’t need to ask for help with this?
“Don’t you think you’re taking advantage of your situation?”
Or a million other ideas pop up.
I’m having to do some massive revisioning of my thinking. I’m having to consciously accept that I must be good friend. I musthave been worthy and helpful. Or I wouldn’t have this circle of amazing men and women around me.
They are proving it to me by simply being here.
I need to move past this ceiling, and I created the opportunity to do so.
I have to be able to receive the bounty and nurturing they want to give to me.
Because if I don’t eat these strawberries, and warm up these dinners for my family, how else can they feel the pleasure of giving, and helping, and nurturing? Isn’t it selfish of me to only and always be the giver, never the receiver?
So in the first of many new understandings to come my way, I am going to become a wonderful receiver.
And every time I feel guilty for receiving, I’m going to remind myself that that receiving is giving, in a way. I’m giving someone pleasure, and a feeling of meaning, and joy at helping.
I’m going to watch the other areas of my life where this energy pops up, too.
A ceiling like this usually meanders throughout everything we touch.
I’m sure there are plenty of other things I’ve been working to manifest that keep getting sidetracked by this crosscurrent of not being able to receive them.
Now that I have the energy of receiving so big on my radar, I know the other areas will easily come into focus.
It makes me thankful that the whole thing came up. Here I thought I was way past feeling “not worthy enough,” and yet bam! The old scoundrel rises again.
And Flow is giving me a huge opportunity to let go of yet another level of it. I’m grateful. Thank you, Flow.
This is yet another reason why I love my work so much…why I love Flow, and manifesting, and working with energy like I do. It never gets old.
As I “fix” myself…as I grow myself…as I continue to master the tools of life and energy, I become a source of contrast and growth for everyone around me.
I give to them…by giving to myself. They give to me…by giving to themselves. In a weird way, it makes perfect sense.
I wish you well in your journey as a giver…and a receiver. And I’ll keep you posted on my journey!
Last, I would really love to hear your response to this article. Please post below!
XO with love and Flow!
P.S. If you want to develop your own ability to receive, I suggest the following playlist:
Overnight Riches Meditation Playlist
This playlist contains the track “The Art of Allowing and Receiving,” which is a powerful Flowdream for opening you to receive. The playlist also contains two tracks to help you receive financially, since for many of us, that’s an area impacted most by our inability to receive.
Thank you for helping me look at the how sometimes I stop myself receiving good things from my friends. I think I am a good receiver but feel that when I give my friends do not want to receive from me.
Just something else for me to work on
Dear Summer,
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. I am a typical caregiver, and I understand where you are coming from. Its not easy to receive for caregivers, as we so get used to give. There is no doubt you will be cured very soon as you are doing the most important steps towards disease you are accepting and embracing it, looking for underlying cause. Every day you are helping thousands of us to change our life drastically. Im sure you will find the right words and motivations to create and get into a flow of pure health.
I would be so happy to help you in any way too. Im very passionate about a healthy lifestyle, and Im doing a naturopathic nutrition course at the moment. Nature has the innate ability to heal, and using the laws of nature induces cure. Thats why it is so important to eat right healthy foods to be in alignment with nature. As foods either feed diseases or fight diseases.
Yet in 1931 a German scientist, Otto Heinrich Warburg, discovered that cancer cells cannot live in the presence of high levels of oxygen in the bloodstream, in another words cancer CANNOT SURVIVE in alkaline environment. Any food, once the process of digestion is completed, will generate a condition of acidity or alkalinity in the body. So to cure cancer from within with natural methods all the acidic foods should be avoided and the diet should be HIGHLY ALKALINE.
Acidic foods are processed foods, sugars, meat (I know you are vegetarian), refined flour products, dairy, coffee, soft drinks etc. (there are plenty of info online with a range of foods). Any sugar is extremely BAD for people with cancer as it really feeds cancer cells. Added refined sugar, artificial sweeteners are highly acidic foods and should be avoided like the plague. Chemotherapy acidifies the human body.
Alkaline foods are raw vegetables, greens, fruits, seeds and nuts etc. Honey, baking soda and lemon are highly alkaline. There are also loads of inspirational stories on YouTube when people with Stage 4 cancer cured it with vegetable juice diet.
So it is very important for everybody, especially for those with cancer, to ALKALIZE their diet. Hopefully, this information will be helpful for you Summer or for anyone else who is reading the comments.
With love and light,
Elena
http://www.cancertutor.com/rawfood/ (more detailed about juice dieting) http://www.changesimply.com/ (another inspirational story) etc.
Hi Summer I had this saved to read. You’re such an amazing soul thanks for sharing! Your words resonate with me
“So in the first of many new understandings to come my way, I am going to become a wonderful receiver.
And every time I feel guilty for receiving, I?m going to remind myself that that receiving is giving, in a way. I?m giving someone pleasure, and a feeling of meaning, and joy at helping.
I?m going to watch the other areas of my life where this energy pops up, too.”
I never really thought about the receiving part like this before. This is huge, I’m going to be mindful to be open to receive more. Thank you so much for sharing. Sending lots of love to you xxx Tameera
Dear Beautiful beam of light,
Words can not give you the emotional hug that I feel you need. Sending it to you now and keeping you in my positive thoughts and prayers. I think you are very wise in seeing now how hard it can be to just receive something. People tend to be better at one than the other, I always find it more fun to give and I feel awkward receiving. I too feel the guilt when someone does something extra for me. It takes practice to change, maybe that is what you are learning at a soul level now. My mother passed away from cancer, she had breast cancer and survived only to find out 5 months later she had leukemia from the chemo. She was a fighter and such a giver. She was a nurse in her career and she found it very hard to be looked after but it seemed like her life went full circle. She looked after many people and they always were so grateful for all the little things she did over and above her duties, I feel she then needed to know how it felt to be the patient. She told me many times how thankful she was for us looking after her, although I saw the guilt all over her face as my Father did laundry or emptied the dish washer. She had no reason to feel guilt as she did it for all of us for many years and we were all so grateful for all she had done and given us. Its funny how our emotions can easily create something that’s not there… Guilt… Easy to say brush it off or take a deep breath but it will find its way back to the top of the pile. What works for one may not work for all but I think acknowledging the situation is a healthy start. I wish you a gentle journey through the c word and just know that the people around you are there because you are a good friend. As this good friend you also need to give them a chance to practice giving as much as you need to practice receiving! Love and prayers to you.. ( you are strong, full of light, and full of love… Now kick the c to the curb!) thinking of you!
All the best,
Andrea
Dearest Summer,
Maybe I feel like a stranger to you, but you are no stranger to me. Every day I listen to you comforting words either in podcast or in Flowdream. With your recommending flowdream medition I went from 30.- per week to live from up ot 30,- per hour and making more then 200hrs in the last two months. As I was feeling shy and yet so frateful. i turned to you and read this blog.
OMG Summer, indeed… Receiving is giving to yourself. And I don’t know anybody who has been so generous in giving your knowledge, wisdom and sharing tha with all of us. Making it so availible to every human being to learn en grow in their own timeline and to get into the flow.
My man took care of me in such a reaspectful way, without every giving me the feeling that I was poor. And I love him so much that he lets me give it back. I see that it difficult for him to accept. But he does. I so hope all the lovely people that you have touched in their hearts get the same experience to give each in their own way.
Thank you so much for your truely honest writing and sharing this phase in your life with us. You’ve changed many of our lives, please let us change yours… Even just for a spli moment.
Wishing you all the best and lots of courage to look at the refelctions of you in the people around you.
Big hug,
Viola
Hi Summer,
You have always done so much for others but so often we do not realize how much we give of ourselves. Your letter reminds me so much of my mother. She was a giver but had so much trouble receiving. On many an occasion I would ask her if she felt joy doing things and giving to others. Of course she said it made her feel good and also very happy. After her response I would ask her why she would deny another person that feeling of joy and happiness. She tried to be better at receiving but it was difficult for her.
Summer, I may not have always shown it, but you have a special place in my heart and I love you very much. It saddens me when I think how near we lived to each other but seemed to only visit when Jay came home. Now the distance is so great. I pray that we can become closer even if it is through cyberspace. Jay loves his sister so very much. I know he wants to get back to CA to see you, Charles, Lexi, Loch, your dad and the Andrecht clan. Take care of YOU and receive with grace knowing the joy it brings to the giver. Dru
Hi Summer, So happy to hear you are doing better – and allowing yourself to be taken care of!
I’ve been checking your Facebook to check on updates…here you are up and teaching already and it sure is a good lesson.
I don’t like to ask for or recieve help because I then feel weak – and not in control of my life and afraid that I won’t be able to ‘repay’.
XO and Happy Receiving
Summer,
Thank You for this:
“And every time I feel guilty for receiving, Im going to remind myself that that receiving is giving, in a way. Im giving someone pleasure, and a feeling of meaning, and joy at helping.”
I hadn’t thought of this before.
Sending you love. So, like, please receive it eh.
Hello Summer,
I was thinking about you recently wondering why I hadn’t heard from you for so long. I was mentally sending you an email asking why, however due to my own pressures and issues it never eventuated.
Then I received your newsletter. So there’s me yesterday driving to swim my 100 laps at my local pool, listening to your Flowdreaming ‘Deep Self Love’, thanking God for you and everyone in my life by name!
As I swam I became SO AWARE of the changes in my life as a result of constantly listening to your Flowdreaming audios for all these months. Again, you were foremost in my mind.
I’ve opened your email at 5:45am, Sydney, Australia time and TOOK THE TIME to read it in it’s entirity.
WOW SUMMER!! WHAT HONESTY!! WHAT AMAZING SELF mind!
I am in awe! Yet another phenomenal story to cause a brain shift and really get me thinking and pondering BIGTIME!
What you have shared shows the mark of the woman you are and further validates the Flowdreaming path of transformation I have chosen, as a result of you!!
Sending you enormous love, prayers and encouragement at this time,
Lynda Mary Burrows
Abermain, Hunter Valley, NSW, Australia
Sent from my iPhone – my first post ever!
Hello Summer,
I sent you a little “get well” message the other day, never thinking you would already be up to writing in your blog and asking for responses so soon after your surgery! You can’t hold a good woman down for long apparently! I am happy to hear your spunky self. And once again I am keeping you and your family in my prayers for complete healing.
My take on Receiving: Hmmmm……my dear Grandma, the one who was like a mother to me in many ways, often had a hard time receiving gifts. It used to drive us crazy. And it also sometimes hurt our feelings. We never really knew what to get Grandma that she would like or use. And when she died, we found some of the things we gave her wrapped in blue tissue paper and stuffed in drawers…never used or enjoyed. (so then we did, ha!) But was Grandma a giver….OH YOU BET!!!! It gave her great pleasure to give to others and she gave and gave and gave in life till she wore herself out. So yes, there does need to be a balance. A give and take. If it makes you happy to give, then it also makes others happy to do the same. I know when a gift I give is joyfully received, it makes me even happier that I gave it! What joy!
Another lesson in Receiving: I have been a care giver all of my life. I’ve cared for my family and now I live with my 80 year old parents doing for them. However, in October of last year I fell and crushed my knee and really messed up my leg in such a way that I am STILL dealing with it. This accident was highly inconvenient for all of us! Holy crap! This just can’t happen, I thought! I am the one who takes care of people, not the other way around. But there I was, in rehab/depressing nursing home for 2 weeks and then home still needing some levels of care for several more months! Horrible. I was so horrified by this but also in so much pain and fear and misery that all I could finally do was this: LET GO. Let go and let God and my family and friends be there for me no matter what happened. I was so grateful to have these people in my life who cared about me enough to cook, do my laundry, visit me, call me, send flowers, and uplifting gifts. I really don’t know how I would have made it through this without their support. It was so unbelievably humbling and heartening. And it made me want to help others even more! These events in our lives are life changing forever in so many ways! It brought me a deeper sense of spirituality as well.
Yes, all of us have deep seated issues of one kind or another that make us react the way we do in situations. But if we can just let go. Let go of our learned reactions and stop judging and comparing ourselves and others and count our blessings with joy and gratitude in our hearts. We will heal faster, feel lighter, love more easily, and have more compassion for ourselves and others. Thats my take on it. It has worked very well for me since the accident. I know you will find whatever works well for you too as that path, and how we get there, is no doubt different for us all.
I know you are on the road to recovery! I wish you so much healing, peace, and joy!
Love,
Deb
Hi Summer, I actually sent you an e-mail to your flowdreaming website and I know that because you have been through so much emotional and physical pain from the diagnosis and surgery that I was not hoping that you would reply, considering you probably have had hundreds of e-mails and posts since. You are right when you said “I give to them by giving to myself. They give to me by giving to themselves. In a weird way, it makes perfect sense.” In the years past, it is actually perfectly understandable for someone in your position to only do what you can when you can because you are in the public eye, you have a family to take care of and constantly on the go with your flowdreaming projects. So whatever amount you can receive from someone, even if it is for just 5 minutes, it is not selfish, you still acknowledge these people in your mind and know you have to move on. Perhaps consider this time as a time to see how everything around you is happening all at once, the wind that blows, the water that drips off something near you, and the bee finding its next flower. Transcendental Meditation (TM) is to be in the now, guided by a mantra with the mind being able to go close to these things happening without your body moving, seeing or hearing. TM has also been widely known in psychological research that does wonders for healing including cancer. Summer, again my healing affirmations are being sent to you and I say from the heart, “get well soon … that’s an order” 🙂
Hello Summer,
Thank you so much for this post and sharing your experience. As always things come to us in Divine timing and as I read of your experience and see that an unwillingness to truly receive on all levels without feeling you have to give all the time, ironically (or perhaps not ironically at all) by you opening up yourself more to your receptivity your are indeed giving us even more with what you share.
Thank you for the lessons you teach through your willingness and openness to share this deep part of yourself and your journey, for it is through this that I continue to gain so much and can reflect upon how it plays out in my own life. I know I am not alone in this, as you reach more and more people with not only your own gifts but your willingness to see how our human existence is always intertwined with our spiritual existence and yes all of us can still ‘play small’ in certain areas that manifests certain experiences here on physical earth. Thank you for your vulnerability and how this too is an opportunity for not only you but all of us to continue to grow and shine.
I send you my most heart felt love, gratitude and healing energy. For we are always in an energetic exchange and I am blessed to be able to give and receive to you and for you to do the same for me.
I honour the part of you that resides within me.. blessings and love to you Summer xxxxxxx
Carrie – Manifestation Divine
Thank you so much Summer for your total honesty and willingness to share your journey, your wisdom and love. I wish for you all the very best for your recovery.
I was going to say a speedy recovery, but it will be what it is meant to be for you. By the way, enjoy those choc covered strawberries. My mouth is just watering thinking about them.
Blessings
Leonie
Ah and ‘this’, your situation, gives you (and us) your best writing & ideas sharing yet.
Looking forward to hearing more of (and benefitting from doing so) your journey and deepest thoughts as you travel it, Summer.
My friend and mentor Harrison Klein resolved a huge piece of my blocks to manifesting. Because I have experienced creating wealth simply by deciding to and that didn’t follow any rules that finance or wealth is supposed to follow, I just shut down manifesting out of love and intention. He said the
key skill in that was Gratitude. So, for now, I have decided that, nothing in my life is objective, nor can anything really be manipulated but it is glorious and I Am Grateful. I Am a conduit for the Spirit.
DEAR SUMMER, YOU ARE DOING AN AMAZING SERVICE. DON’T WORRY, ANYBODY THAT IS GIVING TO YOU IS DOING SO BECAUSE OF THEIR LOVE FOR YOU. YOU DESERVE IT. ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT IN THESE DIFFICULT TIMES THE LORD IS ALWAYS, IN ALWAYS ,THERE FOR YOU. THOSE THAT ARE CARING FOR YOU IS THE LORDS LOVE IN ACTION. All glories to the wonderful work you do. As Abraham Hicks always says, There is love here for you. Recovery is a process, you can do it. Your ever well wisher, Indu Blum. Xoxo
Hello Summer,
First of all, let me wish you well.
This is a touchy subject for most of us and you felt through it very well. In healing school we studied breast cancer a little and the model was that most of the people who are over-nurturers, or giving their all from the front of their heart chakras, were also those who depleted their stores of energy there without giving back to themselves. They forgot to receive from the backs of their heart chakras. For some reason I always saw it as a gas tank back there, and as I would allow Spirit to fill me up, it was always in that fashion. Fill me up, Spirit. But, like you, I would ignore the need to do this for the worthiness factor. Or I would hear my grandmother say things like” what makes you so special”. So we back off and ignore our needs until our bodies tell us otherwise, from a headache to things of a more serious nature.
You write so well and as most illnesses do they make us “go in” because we are too weak to do anything else. But then that is what an illness is designed to do. Make us go in and look deeper. It looks like you are doing just that. I will look forward to the beautiful insights that come from this and applaud your fearlessness in doing it. Not an easy task.
You have some wonderful healers in your area. My teacher is one of them. If you are looking for something of that nature I would be glad to share her name in a private e-mail.
Many blessings
Love and Light
Susan
Hello, beautiful Summer!
Thank you VERY much for your blog above. I’m going to the Flowdreaming Store and purchasing the playlist “Overnight Riches Meditation Playlist.” I HAVE been working on receiving and I must continue and this blog brings it forward again–I do keep it at least at #2 or #3 but today it’s going to be #1.
One of the pictures on my anchor board is of a graceful arm with an uplifted hand and a beautifully wrapped gift hovering above it. I just thought at this instant maybe I need to detach the taped gift from above and attach it to the hand!
I am sending you love and healing energies and, of course, Archangels Raphael (healing) and Michael (powerful archangel for eliminating fear) (courtesy of my classes with Doreen Virtue). I’ve been intending and visualizing them with you all along since the diagnosis.
Thank you, Summer! I am, at last, in a Mystery School!
Love,
Palma Lee XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Hi Summer,
You have helped many, many people. Now you are in need and it’s your turn to receive. Remember the old saying “It is better to give than to receive” so the people you helped now have the opportunity to give back.
Hope all goes well for you ????
Hi Summer,
Thank you so much for sharing your continued update with us. I’m completely speechless yet inspired at the same time. You contributed greatly to where I am today and you were also a huge part of my recovery plan when I was recovering from my thoracic surgeries last year. The third time I was in the hospital for just about a month. Several things kept me going and kept my spirits up during those weeks: knowing that I had my Love and family at my side, listening to your Flowdreaming podcasts and my smile. Through the pain, I learned to ask and receive love and support while always having a smile on my face. I truly believe that playing your old podcasts and doing several of your Flowdreams during that period allowed me to surrender to what I was going through with a beautiful smile.
I feel so blessed from all the lessons I got to learn from my experiences last year. They now allow me to make bold decisions such as choosing to join ME School and so many others. I want to thank you for all you’ve done for me without even realizing it. I know you will get through this and your ability to receive love and support will only grow deeper.
With much love and gratitude,
Carmen
Hi Summer!
I was thinking about this issue for myself yesterday! Something like it, anyway. I was thinking how I want a romantic relationship with a man but at the same time I’m afraid to be in a relationship because I feel not good enough. I don’t have a degree in anything, I’m in a dead end job, I am planning on being enrolled in school in a few weeks but I just feel so less than! I feel like whatever man I attract will leave as soon as he finds out that I’m at this stage in my life at age 31.
Hi Summer:
Thanks for sharing your story. You are incredibly brave. While reading your email I may have had a breakthrough. Well, maybe just an aha moment. I’m at this place where I’ve lost everything needed to make my life work – lost my job…even though I’m mighty talented and have the credentials to prove it, I cannot even get an interview at this point.
Lost my apartment, my car, bank account, etc., etc.
Quite a lesson in humility. I’ve tried just about every method for manifesting, meditation, you name it to no avail.
Could the lesson be – “Learn how to receive”? I’m a good giver, but never learned how to receive. Somehow I felt taking or accepting help in any form meant that I was not capable.
My facade had always been that of “I’m strong and independent”. I don’t need help from anyone nor will I accept help from anyone. However, it’s what I’ve been forced to do during this past year – had it not been for family including my ex-husband, I would have been homeless.
So……..where do I go from here?
Thanks.
P.S. I would love to buy one of your meditations, but not in a position to purchase at this time.
Thank you for all the kicks in the ass to take action and to participate in life. I do not send you ‘pity’ or ‘sorry’, as you are on the path that you choose for your highest good, which is probably to give us more kicks in the butt on the next level. 🙂 Thank you for sharing this post as it is something I need to work on as well. Your courage is inspiring! Sending you a Big hug you gorgeous GODDESS!
Hi, Summer,
WOW! Yesterday was a tough day for me (as Rach can confirm) and the catalyst was not feeling enough. Guilt, shame…. relative to my relationship with my sister who has Stage 4 Lung CA. I could totally relate to what you have been feeling. Receiving has been a tough one for me for many years. I am learning. Slowly, but surely. I know that I will be better for it. My LIFE will be better for it. Apparently, I am being reminded to balance giving and receiving with most most recent experience.
I am grateful that you shared your feelings and happy to be a part of ME School. I wish you well in your recovery as well as speedy healing from your mastectomy. Know that you continue to be an inspiration to many and that we continue to learn through your authenticity.
With heartfelt gratitude,
Tina
Summer
I have written to your mom to wish you well, but suddenly realized not to you directly. I simply wish you to know that you are the most inspiring person in my life. Because of your lessons I have stepped up and out of many negative things and pushed my life to a better level!
You deserve all the positive love that comes your way…. It is what you flow every day why would you be surprised when it flows back? It’s your entire force of what you teach? I think we stuff the hard to swallow things into our physical body ( as a nurse I see this daily) sometimes the lessons we get are too severe for the actual trauma we are holding onto! I’m doing TRE therapy
To hopefully catch this before the lesson gets to my body. It and your flow dreaming techniques have been the one two punch that has kept me pushing forward . Thank you from my heart for always being there when the pain of something can’t be pushed away. Blessings love and quick recovery to you.
Xoxox mela
Hi Summer
Im so sorry you are going through this. Reading today’s update feels like I could have written it myself. My breast cancer diagnosis came last September and although it is scary, I have found it very empowering in a myriad of ways. What I am resonating with particularly in your email is your admission that you have felt like you have been surrounded by friends and their outpourings of love and good will and that you never signed up to bring food, send flowers, pay enough attention, etc. I have travelled this same road!
Even though I am in the business of healing, I realized that I wanted to be a better friend. I won’t bore you with details but I will just say that after chemo, a double mastectomy, radiation, and almost a year of getting herceptin infused into my port, and now waiting to complete reconstruction, these things have contributed greatly to my life and life’s purpose.
Many many blessings for me and I know for you too. Continue on Summer! The best is yet to come.
Thank you, Summer, for such a heartfelt and vulnerable post. I can’t possibly imagine the magnitude of what you’re facing, but I’m honored that you’ve chosen to share your journey. Your honesty helps us to understand the importance of receiving; especially during those times we manifest–either knowingly or unknowingly–where we’re stopped in our tracks and forced to take a good, long look at where we’ve been, where we are, and where we want to be. There are times that definitely feel as though we’ve manifested a strong, swift kick in the butt for ourselves, and I truly believe those times are when we learn the most important soul lessons. Thank you, Summer, for posting this, also because it was healing for me on a personal level as well. My cousin was diagnosed with breast cancer a few months ago, and will undergo a mastectomy next month. She is a couple years younger than me, and we were very close growing up–raised in the same home, more like sisters than cousins. She’s a single mom with 2 kids, and her circumstances have always presented her with challenges since we were kids. Your post helped me to realize that instead of looking at things like my cousin was being dealt yet another crappy hand in life, it may very well be that she has been given an opportunity to stop, look, and listen to what this experience has to teach her, and a chance to begin again. Love and light to you, may your recovery come with ease and grace.
I think this is a big topic for so many people. I think women in particular are great at making sure everyone else is ok while putting themselves on the back burner. I so understand what you wrote about not being able to receive. It is a difficult one for me as well. I thank you for your post, as it has reminded me to work on that issue…to openly and gratefully ACCEPT. Why is that so hard? Looks like it’s time to do more work! 😉
I’m glad that you are receiving lots of love and support, not to mention meals! That is a bonus, for sure. Receiving is an important part of your healing. Receiving love, receiving positive healing energy. The universe likes it’s balance…give and take.
I’m wishing you many blessings on your journey. Know that you are not only loved by the universe, but by all of us fans out here who you have touched.
Summer,
Man I love your words and honesty here. I haven’t read an entire post and hung on the writers every word in a while! This moment is painfully magical for you- isn’t that an irony? Light and dark in the same coin – that is flow isn’t it?
Light and love being sent your way from my soul! Keep taking care of you and when you can sharing pieces of your magic with us! I’m loving what you’ve been sharing!
Xoxo
Bless you:
For your pain and your courage. For your honesty and sincerity. For your vulnerability and your strength.
lol completely relate with the whole “Wait… Enlightened people aren’t supposed to get cancer!” thing. I nearly fell out of my chair at the news of Dr. Dyer and his diagnosis. To me, it just seemed so… So….. Not right. Unfair. Confusing. Twisted.
But I know that ALL things work for God’s GOOD purpose. Wwe humans simply lack the perspective necessary to see when our tragedy will become a miracle.
Thank tou!!! You may never understand the “perfect” timing in this email!! God Bless….Andrea??
Dear Summer,
I believe that you answered your own question dear woman…..’Why I manifested Cancer?”
Look how many people you just taught within this single e-mail…
I send you a glowing love from one sister to another.
xo Patricia
Hi, Summer,
Interesting times…I am so sorry to hear about your manifesting cancer. What a difficult month. I completely understand and agree about not being able to receive. That is something I realized about a year ago. I have been working at it, of course….it isn’t about “working” but allowing. Too bad we workers always feel we can move mountains with ACTION. Seems lately, that only ends up being turned against us in our quest for a better life and world.
Get better, and keep helping others. Jupiter into Virgo in the fall should expand that for the next year. I guess if we see the Uni/Multiverse is perfect as it is, whatever we do, all comes to us in divine order. Lots of Love, with a capital L.
Shelley Overton
Dear Summer. I’m so sorry to hear you are going through such a hard time. Sending lots of love. Sharon
Hi Summer, beautiful lady 🙂
I’m not surprised you have so much support. You are loved and deservedly so, and yes, it is your turn to take and to allow people to give to you. I know quite a few lightworkers (where it made no sense that they got sick) actually got sick because they gave too much and forgot to take back. It’s all about balance as you know.
I, myself, amd healing from something, beautifully through nutrition as well as flowing and other forms of self healing. Oh and rebounding most days.
I think you would definitely benefit from home made broccoli soup on a daily basis. 🙂
Very happy to see you’re recovering beautifully and I look forward to listening to your next live podcast. xxx